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Poster: Stealz Date: Sep 27, 2008 6:45pm
Forum: GratefulDead Subject: Our Daughter

This is in no way a solicitation.

The outpouring of love and human kindness from friends and family alike thus far has been quite overwhelming. I can't even really say why I'm posting this here other than to say it feels good to hammer out the words on a keyboard. Words that are so hard to say but have to be let out. Words that I can't even put my finger on. We are, I am, hurting so much that it feels almost as if my world is falling down around me at this very moment yet here I am typing... hammering...

Often times I consider this place a shithole not worth my time, yet I consistently come back and I think I've figured out why. Through the muck I see goodness behind the digital wall I sit behind, stare at, read incessantly. There is a certain sense of comfort I get when I read the personal interactions between fellow men who hold a bond of shared artistic respect. I see it. I tarnish it, too, from time to time with sarcasm, nastiness, cynicism. Like such a child sometimes....

My ramblings are becoming incoherent but I end the way I began. If/when you follow the link (to friend's of me and my wife's site who, unkowingly to us, set everything up) please do not feel as though you are being solicited to do anything at all. It's not needed at this point. I just thought that I have had many a polite, respectful discourse with many of you before and any kind of and all support is needed at this moment even if it comes from people I don't know.

http://mcppix.com/ellah.aspx

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Poster: pigpen_81 Date: Sep 28, 2008 10:38pm
Forum: GratefulDead Subject: Re: Our Daughter

Stealz,
I am so sorry that you and your family are going through this.
I extend my deepest and most heartfelt condolences. You and yours' will be in my thoughts and prayers.
hang in there.

pigpen81

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Poster: staggerleib Date: Sep 29, 2008 6:00am
Forum: GratefulDead Subject: Re: Our Daughter

There are no words of solace at a time like this. Many years ago, my wife dealt with something similar. The pain never goes away. All that I can hope or pray for you is that you can live your life with this, and hope that you aren't overwhelmed by the sadness it brings.

Pain is a universal thing. We all have had some of these experiences, and so those of us who've had this type of experience, and even those of us who haven't, send our prayers out.

Please know that there are those of us out here in cyberspace who's thoughts are with you.

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Poster: roughyed85 Date: Sep 28, 2008 11:20am
Forum: GratefulDead Subject: Re: Our Daughter

You know why you contacted us, and we know why we've replied to you. Thinking of you and your family, brother.

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Poster: grendelschoice Date: Sep 28, 2008 2:04pm
Forum: GratefulDead Subject: Re: Our Daughter

Stealz

I can only offer my words of sorrow for your loss. I don't know who you are, and our only connection, such as it is, is through this forum.

But please know that as a brand new father of a 2 month old baby girl, I cannot imagine the pain you are experiencing, and I wish only that i had the power to make it go away.

Please know that although I am a stranger to you, you nevertheless have my deepest sympathies and hope for better days ahead.

Peace to you and to all.

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Poster: amosearle Date: Sep 29, 2008 8:43am
Forum: GratefulDead Subject: Re: Our Daughter

My condolences. I hope that in time you can celebrate her life with happiness, but in the interim we grieve with you.

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Poster: ganges Date: Sep 28, 2008 3:43am
Forum: GratefulDead Subject: Re: Our Daughter

I would like to tell you that I'm very very sorry, in my limited way of expressing myself in such a situation with english as 2nd language I wish you and the family all the strength and grace you need and that the light will shine through the pain not too far from now.

With love, ganges

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Poster: patourkid Date: Sep 28, 2008 6:00am
Forum: GratefulDead Subject: Re: Our Daughter

Wow.....I'm SOOOO sorry man. Nothing I say can even begin to take away your pain.Just know that my thoughts are and will remain with you.

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Poster: rastamon Date: Sep 28, 2008 6:29am
Forum: GratefulDead Subject: Re: Our Daughter

I'm very sorry about your daughter, my prayers are with you

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Poster: Stealz Date: Sep 28, 2008 6:53am
Forum: GratefulDead Subject: Re: Our Daughter

My heartfelt thanks to each and every one of you that have replied thus far. My wife and I are touched by the dignity and personal respect each of you have treated or circumstance with.

Thanks, and nothing more. Thank you.

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Poster: Administrator, Curator, or StaffNoiseCollector Date: Oct 9, 2008 10:47am
Forum: GratefulDead Subject: Hopefully not too late

I don't know how I missed this, but I hope it's not too late to offer a kind word. Hang in there.

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Poster: daliguana Date: Sep 28, 2008 1:03pm
Forum: GratefulDead Subject: Re: Our Daughter

Stealz, my younger brother and his wife lost their first after 24 hours of pure bliss followed by 72 hours of letting go and letting God. Nathan Jr. died on the operating table. It was 10 years ago, but we all get choked up about it now. Zoey is getting ten times the love and attention today and every day.
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Poster: Earl B. Powell Date: Sep 27, 2008 7:57pm
Forum: GratefulDead Subject: Re: Our Daughter

...even the words and lyrics we know so well, written for occasions such as this seem trite and would be shallow and an offensive offering. So let me just say that I'm so sorry to have a brother with this ordeal placed upon him and his family. There has got to be a heaven, where else could a child so beautiful go? I'll be praying for those left behind.

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Poster: William Tell Date: Sep 27, 2008 8:49pm
Forum: GratefulDead Subject: Re: Our Daughter

Hey Stealz; I wish I had words that would comfort. So I won't try.

The only thing I can tell you is that doing this is good therapy. Sure, we're just a bunch of oddballs on the web, but the poetry of Hunter is a powerful bond, and it's just this new age means of interacting that I think explains how this can be both soothing and awkward at the same time...

I found this place many a late night when nothing else made much sense. I was deeply surprised by the generous response of Arb, Ashes and Ian in some of my darkest times, as melodramatic, if not even pathetic as that might sound. Most all the rest that have been so kind to me so often here--through them I saw a great deal more light than darkness. Small measures, to be sure; but vital nonetheless.

Hang in there friend, and write whenever you feel the need. Somebody will be up to read it, I am sure.

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Poster: bluedevil Date: Sep 28, 2008 1:32am
Forum: GratefulDead Subject: Re: Our Daughter

As others have said, words can never suffice but I sincerely hope, and earnestly believe, that because you have two other beautiful children that went through this and shared the love and loss with you and your wife that you will all be stronger and closer as a family than anyone could ever possibly imagine. My father and his sister lost a sibling as a child (their brother was 4 when he passed) and its something that still binds them and keeps them closer and more connected than they might have otherwise been more than 70+ years later. I know that might not seem like any help at the moment, but hey, we all know that every silver lining has a touch of grey.

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Poster: robthewordsmith Date: Sep 28, 2008 3:41am
Forum: GratefulDead Subject: Re: Our Daughter

Stealz - I am so sorry. Somethings just demand a humble bowing of the head and a moment's quiet reflection on how fragile life is. From the moment our children are born we fear losing them - but to lose a child so soon, with all promise unfulfilled, is something I can hardly bear to contemplate. We may in many ways be strangers to one another, but we share this place together - this is, as William Tell says, in some real sense a community, a place where people genuinely care about each other. In that spirit of community I want to offer you my heartfelt condolences.

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Poster: johnnyonthespot Date: Sep 28, 2008 11:02am
Forum: GratefulDead Subject: Re: Our Daughter

I am so sorry Stealz.

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Poster: jemajn2323 Date: Sep 29, 2008 2:51pm
Forum: GratefulDead Subject: Re: Our Daughter

If a stranger can be a brother, then may our words from this hole in the digital divide in some way alter your thinking of this great weight for the better. In 87 on Sep 26 our twin boys were born. My wife had a stroke in Dec and was diagnosed with MS in March. One of the boys has a mental handicap. He never went to high school, but graduated by going four years to an intermediate unit.
There were many many opportunities for me to feel sorry and pity, especially things like watching the short bus pull away every morning, but all this shit can be turned into a lesson, and we somehow keep loving and laughing. When I position all of this in my mind next to your loss, it leaves me unable to imagine, and that's scary. Let's face it, there is really only love and suffering in any life, and now your strengths and abilities in both dictate your future. I see your willingness to share here as a gift, and "here" being what it is, I have no choice but to believe that for our part, and yours, it is for the better of things.
Truth Brother,
Gonzo

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Poster: William Tell Date: Sep 29, 2008 4:24pm
Forum: GratefulDead Subject: Re: Our Daughter

Hey man--you hang in there too. I have had a couple of tough years, but nothing to compare with you and Stealz.

Makes you think.

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Poster: user unknown Date: Sep 27, 2008 8:18pm
Forum: GratefulDead Subject: Re: Our Daughter

Stealz, my heart goes out to you my brother. At such a time words, especially those from a stranger cannot possibly be of much help. All I will say is that many positive thoughts, comforting vibes and prayers are heading to you and your family. May you all find some measure of peace and solace in the days to come.

Namaste!

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Poster: JodyC Date: Sep 29, 2008 2:49pm
Forum: GratefulDead Subject: Re: Our Daughter

Stealz-while I am not much of a religious man, when I hear of such a loss as this I have to believe that somehow this was somehow a blessing in disguise. Something, some being higher, knew this was to happen for a reason. Like another here said, the best remedy is heaping all that extra love on your other kids, your wife, family, strangers, even the stranger ones like us here on the archive. We are all connected in this often messy world. Hang tough man and as corny as it sounds as it is to type, when you get confused listen to the music play. Love and peace to you.

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Poster: jglynn1.2 Date: Sep 29, 2008 7:09am
Forum: GratefulDead Subject: Re: Our Daughter

Prayers & Condolences Stealz

I can not begin to imagine what your family and you are going through.

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Poster: Sideways2 Date: Sep 29, 2008 8:38am
Forum: GratefulDead Subject: Re: Our Daughter

I'm sorry for your loss.our prayers follow through all your difficult time..sideways2

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Poster: high flow Date: Sep 27, 2008 8:49pm
Forum: GratefulDead Subject: Re: Our Daughter

I wish I could relieve a fraction of an ounce of your pain. I cannot. Words on a page.....

Your family will remain in my thoughts.

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Poster: WHARFRAT Date: Sep 28, 2008 3:45am
Forum: GratefulDead Subject: Re: Our Daughter

Stealz, May God hold her in his arms forever.
My prayers are with you brother.

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Poster: northstar dead Date: Sep 29, 2008 7:08pm
Forum: GratefulDead Subject: Re: Our Daughter

Sorry about this terrible loss. My heart and prayers go out to you and your family.